Sick Fux ~ Tillie Cole

When Ellis Earnshaw and Heathan James met as children, they couldn’t have been more different. Ellis was loud and beautiful – all blond hair, bright laughs and smiles. Heathan was dark and brooding, and obsessed with watching things die.
The pair forged an unlikely friendship, unique and strange. Until they were ripped apart by the sick cruelty of others, separated for years, both locked in a perpetual hell.
Eleven years later, Heathan is back for his girl. Back from a place from which he thought there was no return. Back to seek revenge on those who wronged them.
Time has made Heathan’s soul darker, polluted with hatred and the thirst for blood.
Time has made Ellis a shell of her former self, a little girl lost in the vastness of her pain.
As Heathan pulls Ellis out of her mental prison, reviving the essence of who she once was, down the rabbit hole they will go.
With malice in their hearts and vengeance in their veins, they will seek out the ones who hurt and destroyed them.
One at a time.
Each one more deadly than the last.
Tick Tock.

 I don't know if I have the words to fully express my love for this book. At first, I was very uncomfortable with the things going on, but then I started to feel vindicated. I don't know if that's right of me, but I cheered for Dolly and Rabbit. I embraced their darkness and absolutely loved it. 

This is Tillie's darkest book. It is not for the faint at heart. It's raw, gritty, scary and down right awesome. How can I say all that in the same sentence?? Read this book (if you dare) and you'll see.

Tillie has promoted that these characters are her favorite. I have some of my own favorites of her other novels, so to hear that, I was intrigued. She's right. 100%! These characters get under your skin. You fall in love with them and you don't even know when it happened. 

This booked rocked my world. I often stopped to wonder where the sick monster inside me came from, that relished in this Wonderland. I am in awe. Just brilliant. 

Damnable Grace (Hades Hangmen Book 5) ~ Tillie Cole

Synopsis

EVEN THE BROKEN, THROUGH LOVE, CAN FIND GRACE...

Secrets never stay hidden.

The burden of guilt never lifts from the heart.

Born and raised in The Order of David, Sister Phebe knows nothing but cult life. Head of the Sacred Sisters of New Zion, Phebe was groomed from childhood for one purpose: to seduce. Prized as a harlot, as a New Zion whore, Phebe is taken from the doomed cult by Meister, the notorious leader of the Aryan Brotherhood. Taken as his possession. Taken to be the woman who will obey his every sexual demand. Under his heavy hand, Phebe finds herself in a place much worse than she could ever have imagined... with absolutely no one to help. And no glimpse of hope. 

Xavier ‘AK’ Deyes is content with his life as Sergeant-At-Arms of the Hades Hangmen. Leader of the infamous ‘Psycho Trio’ and ex-special ops sniper, AK knows how to fight. Experienced in warfare and schooled in military operations, AK is vital to the Hangmen. When his Vice President needs help retrieving his missing sister-in-law, Phebe, from a Klan-funded trafficking ring, AK volunteers to go in. AK remembers the redhead from New Zion. Remembers everything about her from the single time they met—her red hair, blue eyes and freckled face. But when he finds her, heavily drugged and under Meister’s control, her sorry condition causes him to remember more than the beautiful woman he once tied to a tree. Saving Phebe forces hidden demons from his past to return. A past he can never move on from, no matter how hard he tries.

As AK fights to help Phebe, and in turn she strives to help him, they realize their secret sins will never leave them alone. Kindred broken souls, they realize the only way they can be rid of their ghosts is to face them together and try to find peace.

Despair soon turns to hope, and damaged hearts soon start to heal. But when their deep, painful scars resurface, becoming too much to bear, the time comes when they must make a heavy choice: stay forever damned; or together, find grace.

Dark Contemporary Romance. Contains explicit sexual situations, violence, disturbingly sensitive and taboo subjects, offensive language and very mature topics. Recommended for age 18 and over.

Review

This is another great addition to the Hangmen's series! I absolutely love AK and the Psycho Trio! Tillie does an amazing job relaying the emotions of the characters and their mindsets. Even as f*&#ed up as they are, we are still able to understand them and at times relate to their fears, struggles and demons. Tillie does a great job of having the other characters in the book, but still highlighting and focusing on who's story it really is. 

Phebe really surprised me at times. I didn't realize all the mental abuse, along with the physical abuse, she suffered. Her brainwashing went down to her soul and affected her severely. The men in these cults were sick, creepy bastards and the men the cult gave Phebe to are not much better. Phebe is so lost and troubled, I wondered if she would ever be able to escape her demons. 

AK is just a hero. The tragedy he went through was something fierce. There's no recovery from that, yet he continues to want to save people and do right by them. While it may have started as an obsession for him since he couldn't save certain people, it turned in to something beautiful. His strength and heart are what keep the Trio together and its exactly what Phebe needs. Even if she doesn't realize it just yet. 

The emotions in this story gave me goosebumps. The heartache, love, war and death hit you right in the feels. I cannot wait for the next book in this series and I hope the series continues forever. I love each of the Hangmen and want to hear their stories.

Riot (Scarred Souls #4) ~ Tillie Cole

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Synopsis

Stolen by the Arziani Georgian crime mob as a child, 152 was raised and conditioned to be a Mona—the most subservient of the Arziani Blood Pit slaves.

Gorgeous and kind, she has been and under the imprisoning influence of the Type B drug and under the command of the Blood Pit Master’s sister, Mistress Arziani, for most of her life, until the Master calls her back home to Georgia.

He wants her under his total control, and Master always gets what he wants.

But when 152 is gifted to the Blood Pit’s fearsome champion death match fighter as a prize, 152 suddenly finds out that the men who appear most brutal, may just own the kindest hearts. And love may be found, even when living in hell.

Freedom, family, love, 152 will have to fight for what she wants and ultimately make an impossible choice.

Review

Powerful. Emotional. Hopeful.

Riot was all of those things and more. At times I found myself cheering out loud for 901 and 152. Their own personal histories and hell is something no one should have to go through, yet they both did so alone, for so long. 

The Blood Pit was horrible and disgusting. The thought of either, 901 or 152, making it out of their alive was a fantasy. They could only have their stolen moments, that were sometimes riddled with the drugs "Master" would inject them with. It was a sad and depressing existence.  Yet, they still found a way to care and be hopeful. They found a way to fight back, even if it was just with words to harm their "Master."

I absolutely love Tillis's writting. I know whenever I pick up one of her books I am going to enjoy it. You can tell the emotion and love she pours in to each page because you are just as emotional as the characters. You become invested in them, as I did with 901 and 152, They were more than a number and they had each other. This book was powerful and emotional, and at the end of reading it, I felt such pride for all the characters that went through the gulags and blood pit. They had values and character that I wish more real life people have. 

Deep Redemption (Hades Hangmen Book 4) ~ Tillie Cole

ONLY THROUGH BLOOD CAN THE DEEPEST REDEMPTION BE FOUND…

He was born to ascend.

He was destined to lead.

He was never meant to fail.

Prophet Cain lies broken and defeated on the floor of his cell. A cell he has been thrown into by the one person who was supposed to stand by his side until the end. His flesh and blood, his only companion. His beloved twin brother.

Cain has sacrificed everything for his people. He left the safety and security of his life of study to infiltrate the infamous Hades Hangmen. He lived with them, rode with them, and then betrayed them. All in the name of a faith he can now feel slipping away from him. Like everything else he once held dear…

But then his isolation is broken. Another prisoner is brought to the cell next to his. A woman fighting her own demons and fears. A woman who Cain understands needs him, as he needs her.

As the connection between them grows, so does Cain’s resolve. He will right the wrongs he has done. He will atone for the evil acts carried out in his name. He will save the one he loves…

… Even if the battle takes him to the gates of hell itself.

Holy Hell! This book…..I just can’t. In an effort to not say too much, I may blab on and make no sense, but once you read Deep Redemption, you will understand. The emotion, the angst, the tension, the suspense…..this book made me feel all of this times 10.

Cain/Rider, man did I hate him, but I don’t think I hated him as much as he hated himself. His self loathing was so powerful, he felt he deserved all that came at him. He welcomed it. Until he hears Harmony’s voice.

Harmony is a strong, fierce and loyal woman. She loves wholeheartedly. There is no half way with her. Willing to continue on and make sacrifices some would not even consider, she continues to stand up for what she believes in. She is an inspiration.

Their story, along with the Hangmen and the New Order completely captured my attention. I did not want this book to stop. The twists in this book are some that I was not expecting. I need more!!

A Thousand Boy Kisses ~ Tillie Cole

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One kiss lasts a moment.

But a thousand kisses can last a lifetime.

One boy.

One girl.

A bond that is forged in an instant and cherished for a decade.

A bond that neither time nor distance can break.

A bond that will last forever.

Or so they believe.

When seventeen-year-old Rune Kristiansen returns from his native Norway to the sleepy town of Blossom Grove, Georgia, where he befriended Poppy Litchfield as a child, he has just one thing on his mind. Why did the girl who was one half of his soul, who promised to wait faithfully for his return, cut him off without a word of explanation?

Rune’s heart was broken two years ago when Poppy fell silent. When he discovers the truth, he finds that the greatest heartache is yet to come.

Standalone Young Adult Tearjerker Romance.

For ages 14 and up.

I can't even begin to say how amazing this book was. Life-altering, inspiring and uplifting are a few words that come to mind. This book completely filled my heart and was a total ugly-cry. Absolutely loved it!!

Rune Kristiansen is the ultimate book-boyfriend. I want to leave this review spoiler free, but I will say that quiet boy was loyal and was way stronger than he gave himself credit for. He went through things that adults have difficulty dealing with, let alone a hormonal teenage boy. But Rune was not your typical teenage boy. I love Rune!!!

Poppy Litchfield is an amazing, strong and beautiful young woman. Always the girl on the adventure, she doesn’t let anything slow her down. She found her very own Viking in Rune and never looked back. She thought of everyone, but herself. Poppy is selfless, loving and just a gorgeous person inside and out.

"Poppy and Rune for Infinity"

These two characters filled my heart, “it almost burst.” There is not a rating high enough to really convey how amazing A Thousand Boy Kisses is. Tillie Cole outdid herself!

Souls Unfractured (Hades Hangmen #3) ~ Tillie Cole

"For fractured souls are like magnets.

Drawn to collide into an impossible bliss…"

Labeled a ‘Cursed’ woman of Eve from birth, Maddie has endured nothing but pain and repression at the hands of The Order’s most abusive elder, Moses. Now living with her sister in The Hangmen’s secluded compound, finally, Maddie, is free. Free from the suffocating faith she no longer believes in. Free from endless years of physical and mental torment.

Just… free…

At age twenty-one, the timid and shy Maddie is content to live within the confines of her new home—safe from the outside world, safe from harm and, strangely, protected by the Hangmen’s most volatile member; the heavily pierced and tattooed, Flame. 

Flame. 

The man who ceaselessly watches over her with his midnight dark and searing eyes. The man who protects her with a breath-taking intensity. And the man who stirs something deep within her numbed heart. 

But when circumstances conspire for Flame to need HER help, Maddie bravely risks it all for the broken man who has captivated her fragile soul. 

The Hangmen’s most infamous member, Flame, is ruled by one thing—anger. Plagued by haunting demons from his past, an all-consuming rage, and isolated by an abhorrent hatred of being touched, Flame's days are filled with suffocating darkness, pierced only by a single ray of light—Maddie. The shy, beautiful woman he cannot purge from his thoughts. The woman he has an overwhelming need to possess… 

... the only person who has ever been able to touch him. 

Flame’s mission in life is to protect Maddie, to keep her safe. Until a trigger from his troubled past sends him spiraling into madness, trapping him in the deepest recesses of his disturbed mind. 

His Hangmen brothers fear that Flame is beyond saving. 

His only hope of salvation: Maddie and her healing light.

Dark Contemporary Romance.

Contains explicit sexual situations, violence, disturbingly sensitive and taboo subjects, offensive language, and very mature topics.

Recommended for age 18 years and over.

Amazing!! Truly, there are no words to describe how profound this story is. I could not wait for this release and Tillie Cole did not disappoint.

Maddie and Flame are explosive….. Emotionally, physically and mentally. The glimpses we see in to these two’s past is completely gut wrenching and I physically want to do harm to those that caused their pain. They were told they were evil, that they were sinners and that no one would love them. Yet, they are two of the most loveable people.

As “different” as Flame is, his openness with Maddie is refreshing and inspiring. Instead of all the fluff or pretty words that most women want, Maddie needs honesty. That is what Flame can give her. She is the one he can touch and she calms the flames. His protective instincts for her are sexy as hell and makes Maddie feel safe. With that sexy body, dark soulful eyes and hot beard, what more could you want?

Maddie has her own demons from her past she wants to move on from. Feeling damaged herself; Maddie is able to understand Flame’s struggles and is strong enough to try for the both of them. Her sketches tell Flame exactly what she hopes and dreams for them and Flame comes to realize he wants the same thing, but only from Maddie. She might be “the little one,” but she’s a fire cracker and the only one tough enough to be Flame’s old lady.

Their love is timeless. It will be one for the ages and Souls Unfractured just pulls at every heart string you have. It’s raw, gritty, and emotional, with beautiful scenes of love and devotion. I could not put this down and I cannot wait for more!!!