They say in order to find yourself you have to go home.
What if
home was what you were running from?
Where did
that leave you?
Always on
the other side of the fence.
Always
looking in.
Always
wishing you were someone you couldn't be.
Until one
day you meet her.
The one.
She was
my high, but she was also...
My
demise.
STANDALONE
within a series. This is a Full Length Novel.
I don’t even know where to begin. I mean, this book…..this
book hit close to home. Not only did it make me think of a time where I dated
an addict and how, in turn, became wrapped up in that world too, but Austin
also said things that my husband actually says to me now. It’s just crazy how
this story resonated with me.
“Anytime you want to
talk about your parents, I’m here to listen. I wish I could have met them, so I
could tell them how amazing their daughter is and how much I’m in love with
her.”
~Austin
I lost my dad when I was 19 and my mom when I was 21. I was
searching for comfort and love since I had just lost my biggest supporters.
Austin wasn’t much different. He also felt he didn’t belong and had to prove himself.
He, like the other boys, was jealous of the bond Half Pint and Bo had, which
just caused him to feel more lost. His using started as fun and partying, but
then ran away from him so he could drown his sorrows. And it’s true, at some
point you ask yourself, how did it get this bad…..yet, you have no answer. The
hardest part is that Austin is a talented, loving, devoted and gorgeous man
that had demons bigger than he could initially cope with.
"I need you, baby, I need you like I need fucking air to breath. I'm nothing without you! NOTHING! Please.....just fucking help me!"
~Austin"
I connected with Briggs in a sense that she always had to
take care of herself. When she finally meets Austin and the alpha that he is,
she relishes in the fact that he wants to take care of her. She can let go and
feel safe and loved by someone, especially since she was lacking it from her
uncle. She enabled Austin, but truly she didn’t know what was going on in
Austin’s head to help him. While she blamed herself, she really couldn’t do
anything until Austin was ready to. Briggs is beautiful, sweet, and smart, but
often felt helpless and broken since she couldn’t help the one person she loved
more than anything.
Austin and Brigg’s story tore my heart to shreds and had me
reflecting on my own past. It churned my gut and made my heart ache. There was
a lot of angst, but also a lot of love. Seeing certain times in the Good Ol’
Boys’ lives from Austin’s point of view was certainly eye opening and just made
me want to hug him more. M’s writing was exceptional, as always, and she was
able to tap in to the struggles that an addict has, as well as the struggle
their loved ones go through. Absolutely brilliant!
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